“We should be grateful to the Lord our God for putting us to the test…It is by way of admonition the chastise those who are close to him.”
Sometimes I think that I have a bi-polar prayer life, if that is possible. It isn’t that prayer is completely lacking but the intimacy with the Lord, that conversation with the divine has been elusive. There hasn’t been anything to say or write. Certainly some of it is my fault, well, none of it is God’s fault, so I guess that leaves it all on me.
I’m Lazy! There I said it. The truth is out. Now what do I do? I do what Jesus did when he fell under the weight of the cross – I pick it up and continue on the journey.
What is the weight of the cross that is causing me to stumble? The loss of a job; Anxiety about losing my health care benefits; Frustration at not having the time and cooperation to build my own business; my father-in-law’s health; my brother-in-laws brain tumor; anger at the church that I love dearly; anger at myself for my faithlessness?
I have been like Martha. “Martha, you worry about so many things.”
I have been like Martha. “Martha, you worry about so many things.”
I need to be more like Mary. “Mary has chosen the better part and it will not be denied her.”
I need to sit with the Lord, be quiet in his presence, listen to Him speak, let him take my burdens and have him help me carry my cross.
Lord, give me wisdom of heart. Amen.
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